14 Feb Pregnant After A Refining Season
We started trying for a baby in January of 2013, and in February of 2014, I had scheduled an infertility consultation. Two days later, I found out I was pregnant. Sadly, in April of that year, we lost our sweet baby. While miscarrying, the doctors found numerous large fibroids. The next day, I had an emergency D&C, and a few months later, I had an open abdominal myomectomy (to remove the fibroids).
We tried to get pregnant for another year without success. I was eventually diagnosed with Hashimoto’s disease, hypothyroidism, anxiety, estrogen dominance, more fibroids (they grew back), cysts, food intolerances, reactivated chronic Epstein Barr virus, MTHFR and more. Over the coming years, God connected me with Moms in the Making and my faith grew. I started seeing a naturopathic physician and God healed the Hashimoto’s disease.
God began refining me. It was an incredibly painful but beautiful season. My faith was rising up and my hope was stirring. I knew God would be faithful. And, well, He carried me, a lot.
Quick story: Daylight Savings Time had just happened and my dog came up to me and gave me the look, you know the one, the hungry “feed me” look. I told her it wasn’t time yet (as it was now an hour before dinner time). Immediately in my heart I heard the Holy Spirit say, “that’s what I’ve been trying to tell you, it’s not time yet.” I knew that though we had been waiting for a baby, the answer wasn’t a no but a NOT YET. That specific word from God grew my faith muscle like never before.
My 2019 scripture of the year was Isaiah 43:19 (NIV). It reads, “See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland.”
In January of 2020, we miraculously got pregnant completely naturally. Our precious baby girl was born that August. Her name Eliana is a Hebrew name and it means, “God has answered”.