God Was Near During Our Miscarriage

After over 3 years of infertility, 4 failed rounds of IUI, 1 round of IVF that brought us 3 beautiful embryos, we heard the news no one ever wants to hear, “I’m so sorry, but there is no heartbeat.” Our first embryo transfer ended in a miscarriage at 8 weeks. I left the hospital, turned the corner and collapsed against a brick wall.

Through my tears and broken heart I uttered the words, “you are good, your love endures forever.” We will never understand why bad things happen. But we can be confident knowing God is there in the midst of our pain, feeling every bit of it. I knew He didn’t cause our loss. And I was extremely comforted knowing our baby was in the arms of Jesus waiting for us.

To the many women who have sent us sympathy cards, scriptures, and encouragements through the Moms in the Making support team, you have no idea how much of an impact it had on us as we grieved our long awaited baby. Every time I was having a rough time there was a card in our mailbox from the support team. When I asked God to let us know He was there, there would be a card in our mailbox. Each card delivered was given to us at the exact time we needed it. God is so good!

The love and support we have received through our family, friends, church and Moms in the Making group has left an impact on us. And through our grief we could feel God’s presence. We are at peace with what happened because we trust God’s plan for our lives. And we will continue trusting and praying for our rainbow baby.

For those waiting, for those who are pregnant , or are adopting, who are going through treatment, or who are unclear as to what to do next, I am praying over you too. I am praying you feel God’s presence in your life the way I have felt Him in mine. I pray you have peace that only comes from Him. God sees each and every one of you. And He knows the desires of your hearts. Keep pressing into Him. And trust His timing.  God’s got this!!

“For if we Hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently “ Romans 8:25

Amanda Bowins

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