God Carried Me Through My Loss

We had our daughter without any problems almost 9 years ago. 3 years ago, God revealed to me that He had a second child for us. My husband was on board with trying. Little did we know the hardships we would face.

It didn’t take long for me to get pregnant. I was so excited and immediately thanked God for His blessing. Not even 2 weeks later, the pregnancy ended in miscarriage. My whole world was turned upside down. My faith and trust in God was shaken. I still believed in God and knew without a doubt He could do the work and give me the child He promised, but my trust fell short.  I fell down a downward spiral that I didn’t know how to get out of. I’d gotten so used to the dark I didn’t even know I was there anymore.

But God knew, and He knew what I needed to get out. At a lady’s conference through my church organization, He lifted me out of that dark place, and I began to hope again. I was finally in a good place again.

It had been 2 years since my loss, and I was finally ready to get some answers and scheduled my consultation at a fertility clinic. And then it happened again, and I lost that baby, too. My heart broke, and I didn’t think I could handle going through that again.

But God!! He is so good. Each time the pain was too great, I cried out to God for help, and He answered every time. He was with me through those hard days. There wasn’t a moment I didn’t feel His presence with me. I found so much peace and healing, I was just in awe of His goodness.

I had a consultation a week after my loss. I found out I have the MTHFR gene mutation, and my left tube was blocked. We have now done 5 IUIs without success but God! He gave me a promise, so I’m still hoping, still trusting, and still believing!

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