During our infertility journey, I faced one of the darkest periods of my life and spiritual journey. Alongside the repeated disappointments in our fertility efforts, the pandemic claimed my father and grandmother within a month, and my husband lost his job. We hit rock bottom. In the spring of 2023, I discovered Moms in the Making through an infertility Facebook group. Unsure of what to expect, I joined seeking support from faith sisters on this journey. Despite joining late, the group welcomed me with open arms, allowing me to openly share my pain and struggles.
Through the studies and support I received, I began to process everything I had been through. As the fall conference approached, our leader strongly encouraged us to attend. Initially facing scheduling conflicts, I was uncertain if I could go. However, winning a contest provided me with a discounted ticket, prompting my husband and me to rearrange our plans and travel to Texas together. I took a leap of faith, traveling and staying in a hotel room alone. Upon arrival and receiving my conference goodie bag, I felt seen and loved.
At the conference, my cup was filled. Meeting other women from my group in person felt like reconnecting with long-lost friends. The “shout of mourning” breakout session helped me release more of the pain I had been holding inside. After the conference, my husband noticed the newfound happiness and joy within me. The experience helped me embrace joy regardless of our circumstances. The following month, we began our IVF journey with renewed hope and joy, knowing that God is on our side and has good plans for our family!